Man Plans and the Gods Laugh

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Life is unpredictable. We weigh our options and make the best decisions based on where we are and the information we have at the time. Yet sometimes we still end up in the wrong place. Or with the wrong people. Or following the wrong path.

If you know anything about numerology, you know 2017 was a 1 year. A year symbolizing the journey of change, new beginnings, independence, and becoming who you really are.

It started with little things… subscriptions to New Mexico Magazine and Santa Fean, returning as a donor to the International Folk Art Alliance. I finally had to admit to myself I was absolutely miserable living in Asheville and I was homesick for Santa Fe. So, I decided to move back to Santa Fe in mid- to late 2018. In July, “mid- to late 2018” turned into “I’ve rented an apartment, the movers have been scheduled, boxes and packing materials are being delivered on Monday”. And just like that, the decision was made. I was going home.

Thomas Wolfe was wrong, you can go home again. I’ve been back in Santa Fe now for 3 ½ months and it feels like I never left. My almost 2 years in Asheville feel like a dream sequence I finally woke up from.

Coming home to Santa Fe turned out not to be the only big change in my life this year.

At the beginning of 2017, I was working on a new series of weavings, Magic in the Desert: Santa Fe Reflections. I had a marketing strategy. I had goals. I was in several mastermind groups for artists. I thought I was all set to move forward in a meaningful way. But, what I really had was a list of “shoulds” I was trying to execute against. It didn’t work. It wasn’t me. I felt like a fraud. And along the way, I discovered the weavings in the Magic in the Desert series were very personal to me. I really didn’t want to sell them.

Creating art was put on hold as I packed, moved, unpacked, and settled in. Once I had my new studio set up, I found myself unable to get in there and start weaving again. I needed a challenge. I needed a change. I needed to play. So, I returned to painting. And a whole new world opened up for me.

Weaving will always be a part of my meditative process and a way to relieve stress. And I’ll continue to offer my Soul Artifacts to a select audience on a commission basis. But as I move into 2018, my studio practice will be focused on my paintings.

I’m also changing how I show up in my marketing. No more marketing “shoulds" for me in 2018. You’ll see blog posts when I have something to say and Instagram posts when I have something worth sharing.

So, as 2017 comes to a close, I’m grateful for my journey this year. It wasn’t always fun. It wasn’t always easy. But with every decision and action, I built a new foundation for my life and my art.

And, I found my way home.